I hope this is the last exam in medical school

Finally I can say ‘Now I know how’s the feelings of finishing professional exam’...I don’t wanna think whether I deserve to be a doctor or not, I just wanna pass the exam...

Actually I feel very thankful to the god for the cases that I got especially the long case. Not that I performed well but at least the simple single diagnosis did not intimidate me in the first place...I know it sounds illogical, but me with magical thinking(are u sure?) believe that I need to tell myself what cases I want so that God knows how to help...Haha...(Crazy 1)

This morning while I was on the way to the 10th floor(exam place), I kept on instilling positive thinking into myself eg today is my lucky day, i'm a lucky girl, blah blah blah...However, I was out of encouraging words ady before I reached my destination...Fortunately I met a lady in front of A&E. She looked at me as though we have met somewhere...Of course we have met before! After she spoke to me, I suddenly remember that she was my first case write up patient in my very first posting in clinical year. After a brief chat, I continued creating my 'positive aura' by thinking that meeting her was an auspicious sign...(Crazy 2)

I hope I won’t be too sad when I look back at this post one week later if I fail...

Long case: Asthma(medicine)...Thank god, not surgical, O&G, and some other complicated things...The patient was well today so I have saved lots of time in doing physical examination...She had experience in being a patient in exam in this week thus she was able to remind me something that I should ask her...wahahaha...Nice patient(a PK in klinik warga if not mistaken) and also an helpful PK who took all the equipment for me...by the way, during viva I realized that I didn't ask for height and weight of the patient...

Short cases:

1)Medicine:Hand examination- I missed a lot of steps but couldn’t remember what should I have done even though given chance at that time...

2)Orthopaedic: neurological examination of lower limbs and special test...It’s actually a spine case...

3)O&G: counsel risks and complications of ERPOC...

4)Psychiatry: say bye bye to the marks...totally gone:( who asked u not to revise?

Now looking at my messy room...I dunno which part should I start to tidy up...Can write blog and play bejeweled till mad( actually can’t...I have compressed my ulnar nerve on laptop when playing so my right hand easily get numb...Plus my right index finger can grow callus ady because i play too much bejeweled)